i've been angry this year. so many things i want to do, so many places i want to go to, but i can't. so many people i want to reach out to, but i don't want to for fear of rejection... my self worth has gone up a notch. i no longer feel like such a loser, and i'm proud that i found a job... i'm no longer happy because someone or something made me happy. i am happy because i am happy. being happy is possible after all, even with the non-existent luv life... my empty world doesn't feel so empty anymore. i became close with a handful of friends. i'm beginning to have a social life... i've realized that being hopeful is a good thing... wishing, wishing, wishing. hoping, hoping, hoping. believing that 2012 will be a great year for me and my bear!!!
