Remembering

I'm not going to tell the story the way it happened. I'm going to tell it the way I remember it...
Four years ago, I felt strongly about someone. I'm not really sure if it was the L word I was feeling or if it was more of desperately needing to have someone who will be there for me to hold my hand as I was about to face a rather difficult chapter of my so called life... I was five months pregnant and alone when I met this person. Instant connection... Became best friends after a few days... Inseparable for the next two months... But then, the friendship was cut short by distance and circumstance... =(

We once shared a common goal: we planned on migrating to The Great Cayman Islands! (((LOL))) At that time, I was constantly googling images of The Great Cayman Islands while I was at work, day dreaming... Imagining what our life together would be like in this new and exciting place: the two of us raising the child I was about to have... coming home to each other after a hard day at work... ***sigh*** But then, I had to leave, and he had to stay behind... I had a baby to raise, while he had a career to build, obligations to fulfill, and dreams to chase... (nostalgia now makin me cry just a lil bit!)

Things didn't quite turn out as we planned... Physical separation... Unexpected turn of events... Out of sight, out of mind... We failed to keep the communication lines open... Eventually the friendship went kaput! =( I still think about him sometimes, though... I seldom do this, but once in a while, I indulge myself by allowing my mind to wander into thoughts of   "what could have been..." It's his birthday today... Happy 28th Birthday my friend, wherever you are... I wonder if I'll ever see you again... I wish you well... and I wonder if you also think about me sometimes... ;P

Calvin & Hobbes: I think we dream so we don't have to be apart so long. 

If we're in each other's dreams, we can be together all the time...  

Just A Few of the Many Happy Memories:

>>> He and I spent the morning together--- eating, talking, watching tv... at noon we rode the bus together--- I was going to work, and he was going to do errands... My stop was coming up and I needed to get off the bus but at the last minute I decided to blow off work... Stayed on the bus and spent the rest of the day with him doing errands... Happy day... Fun day... All smiles...

>>> I was anxiously waiting for my mom to arrive from my hometown and was gonna tell her my news--- that I was six months along the way! He decided to take me to the mall and go shopping like we always do, like it was any other day--- to calm my nerves... and it worked! Be it window shopping, grocery shopping or buying maternity clothes--- it's always fun when he's around...

>>> We were both craving for the perfect sisig dish... we went on a food trip--- on a quest for the best sisig in town! We ate at Dencio's, Gerry's, Ineng's, and even tried vacuum packed sisig and canned sisig, too (ewww!)... We both loved Dencio's! If pregnant girl wanted sisig, pregnant girl got sisig--- that's the rule! ...and the weight just kept piling on and on and on... LOL 

>>> He calls me up on my cellphone a few minutes after leaving my house... He tells me to look out the window because he wanted to wave at me from across the street. (This incident just makes me smile every time I remember it!) ...and there he was, six feet and five inches tall, looking like an ant from where I was standing--- because I lived on the 6th floor of the building.

>>> He sends me a text message while I was at work asking me if I liked buttered corn and carrots... he tells me he got into a fight with some boys while playing basketball... I dunno why up to now I still remember all this... While at work I find out that I had the day off on my birthday... the first thing I do after hearing the good news is call him up to tell him all about it...

>>> He went with me to the gynecologist for prenatal check ups and to government offices for filing of maternity benefits--- people in these places automatically assumed he was my husband, neither of us told anyone that we weren't married or that he wasn't the father of the child I was carrying... Being together just felt natural... and FUN was always part of the equation!

>>> I had a exhausting day at work and was going home to an empty house because it was the maid's day off... He showed up and gave me a hug and everything bad about my day quickly dissolved... He made me smile... He got me laughing my ass off even when I was at my grouchiest... His mere presence made me realize that my life wasn't so bad after all... ***smile***