ABC facts about me

...because the world revolves around me. (If you must know) lol

A- Age: If I tell you then I will have to kil you :P

B- Biggest Fear: That I'll die and no one will take care of my kid

C- Current Time: 12:21am

D- Drink you last had: Cranberry Iced Tea

E- Easiest Person To Talk to: Teetan (I just talk to him, he doesn't talk back)

F- Favorite Song: Makita Kang Muli by Sugarfree 

G- Grossest Memory: fell down a sewer 

H- Hometown: Tagoloan, Misamis Oriental

I- In love with: Wentworth Miller :)

J- Jealous Of: people who are going on fabulous trips, eating fabulous food, etc.

K- Killed Someone? same answer as letter A

L- Longest Relationship: 7 years

M- Middle Name: Chaves

N- Number of Siblings: 2 boys

O- One Wish: Peace on Earth (haha Miss Universe answer!)

P- Person who you last called: my boss Stuart

Q- Question you're always asked: When is he going to talk? (RE: Child with Autism)

R- Reason to smile: My Little Bear is happy

S- Song you last sang: You've got a friend (with Che, Rom, Rog, Piom haha!)

T- Time you woke up: 10am

U- Underwear Color: Blue

V- Vacation Destination: Kota Kinabalu

W- Worst Habit: Pringles (once you pop, you can't stop!)

X- Xrays you've had: dental xrays

Y- Your favorite food: Jelly Belly jelly beans (coconut flavor)

Z- Zodiac Sign: Aquarius

Disconnected

The walls we built around us to keep
out the sadness also keep out the joy.

Two months ago I lost someone important to me to lung cancer and it is now slowly sinking in that at this moment, in this sometimes cruel world that we live in, I no longer have anyone who has my back. Of course my family will always be there for me and my little bear but I always thought of this person as a bonus - someone outside of my family who I can call if ever I needed a friend. But now he's gone...

Now I really need to put myself out there and at least try to make connections with people. I really want to have someone who understands me, but it has been quite challenging for me to find a person like that. I guess I've been burned one too many times that it has become tiring to get to know someone only to lose that person and somewhat disappointing to realize that the efforts I've put into building a connection were all in vain...

I often wish someone would give a damn about me... 

I don't know if I'll ever find such a person... 

I really need to shake off this feeling of being alone... 

Or maybe I've just been watching too many Kdramas on TV the past few days.

2015 is super awesome

...and it will keep getting better!

Ang aking ilaw sa gabing mapanglaw tanging IKAW.

Actually, we're OKAY!!!

Life, please go easy on me!!!

If the month of May had been rough, it's now just a walk in the park

compared to the month of June... I lost the job that I had for 2.5 years... 

Because I lost my job, my Baby Bear is not able to go to school for the 

first time in 5 years... Anyone out there who wants to sponsor his tuition?

It breaks my heart to see him stare at his school building every time we

pass by the place, I guess he misses his teachers and classmates... :(

On the brighter side: He's been responding well to Applied Behavior 

Analysis Therapy 3 times a week... He doesn't have tantrums and meltdowns 

as much as he used to... I found a part time job... I have more free time to spend 

with my Bear... And HOPE is always there... I'm hoping that life will not be as 

hard as it is at the moment... There is hope that the Infinite will lead me 

SOMEWHERE... :)

The curve balls that life is throwing my way seem to keep coming... 

One day I had job security and many trips to the shopping mall... 

The next day I get an email that my contract has ended and "we ran 

out of work for you" and there are still debts to pay and groceries 

to purchase... One day my Baby Bear is happily giggling, smiling, and 

talking... The next day he stops communicating and just starts crying... :|

I am praying, praying, praying for better days to come...

Please include me and my Bear in your prayers...

Maybe God just wants to toughen me up...

"For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to

harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." --- Jeremiah 29:11

Hang In There

I'm not gonna lie, the past month has been rough on me. 

Autism has always been the enemy and I feel like I have been losing way too many battles lately. 

I'm hoping for better days. Please, Lord, let there be happier days ahead for me and my Bear...

What doesn't kill us will only make us stronger!

My Bear is 7