♥♥♥

YOU make me the happiest girl...

mayeee

all i can say is that my life is pretty plain, i like watchin the puddles gather rain and all i can do is just pour some tea for two and speak my point of view but its not sane, its not sane, i just want someone to say to me i'll always be there... ;););)

Happy!!!

Me and my Little Bear

Happiness is an attitude. We either make ourselves miserable, 

or happy and strong. ~~~ Francesca Reigler

it's my birthday!!!

With all that I've done wrong I must have done something right 
to deserve a hug every mornin and butterfly kisses at night... ;););)

Best Birthday present... ever!
Every year it keeps getting better...
Somebody up there must really love me...
thank you, thank you, thank you.

2011

i've been angry this year. so many things i want to do, so many places i want to go to, but i can't. so many people i want to reach out to, but i don't want to for fear of rejection... my self worth has gone up a notch. i no longer feel like such a loser, and i'm proud that i found a job... i'm no longer happy because someone or something made me happy. i am happy because i am happy. being happy is possible after all, even with the non-existent luv life... my empty world doesn't feel so empty anymore. i became close with a handful of friends. i'm beginning to have a social life... i've realized that being hopeful is a good thing... wishing, wishing, wishing. hoping, hoping, hoping. believing that 2012 will be a great year for me and my bear!!!

i love you, buddy!!!

someone absolutely delightful came into my life! he has made me realize how important it is to have a friend you can count on. it's so refreshing to have a friend, who is a boy, who is not a boyfriend... you know what i mean! truly, there are certain people you meet in life who makes it possible for your frozen heart to become just a tiny bit warmer. it's too early to tell but i have a feeling that this friendship is gonna last a lifetime. if not, if for whatever reason he'll not be part of my world anymore, i just know i'll never forget this person and he'll always have a special place in my heart. lately i've been feeling a certain emptiness... i have a full life with my little bear, my gal pals, and our little autism community, but somehow it lacked something. when i met this buddy of mine and started becoming fast friends with him, i realized i miss having someone to talk to. he is someone i can connect with, laugh with, talk about serious stuff or the most mundane of things in our daily lives, without the complications of a committed relationship. i always thought a boy and a girl can never be just friends... now i know it's possible. i just wanna thank you, buddy, for being my one man support system for the past month. you've helped me in so many ways... not just in finding a job, but you've also helped me rediscover my self-worth. i'm feeling a little more confident about myself these days and that's because you pushed me into making things happen. just know that little bear and i will always be here for you, buddy! i love you always, always, always... ;););)

13 random questions

i see the moon, the moon sees me, under the shade of the old oak tree,
please let the light that shines on me, shine on the one i love... ♥♥♥

1))) Are you a morning person or a night person? >>> i used to be a night person... slept during the day, worked at night. even when i wasn't working i stayed up all night watching tv and surfing the net... but now that bear is in school, we both need to get up really early in the morning so i sleep like a normal person now...

2))) Are there any causes you strongly believe in? >>> autism awareness and the research for a cure for autism. i wish more people will be aware of the condition the families with autism are in so as not to be so quick to pass judgement on parents and so that quirks of children with autism like my bear will be more accepted in society.

3))) When you meet someone of the opposite sex, what do you first notice about them? Which are the parts of their body that you notice? >>> i notice how clean the person is. of course i then notice the face and how well they dress. and how nice a person smells is definitely a turn on =D

4))) Which is your favorite comic book character? What do you like about him/her? 
>>> betty cooper of archie comics... coz she's a good girl... i wanna be one too... 

5))) Have you ever used being drunk as an excuse for doing or saying something? >>> yes! LOL 

6))) Who was the first person you ever kissed? >>> a classmate, when i was 13...

7))) Who was your first love? >>> the person i first kissed...

8))) If someone gave you $1,000 and asked you to kill a butterfly by burning it alive in the flame of a candle, would you do it? >>> yes! i'm so broke i'll do it for the money... LOL

9))) If a genie granted you 3 wishes, what would you ask for? >>> a trip for 2 to disneyland coz me and my bear badly need a vacation... a new laptop coz mine is falling apart... and several sessions with dr.bello... LOL

10))) Have you ever dated two guys at once without either of them being the wiser about it? >>> no, i've always been a one man woman...

11))) Is there someone from the past you really miss and would like to locate? >>> yes, i always wonder about him. i don't know his last name so i can't search him on facebook.

12))) Would you marry someone much richer or much poorer than you? >>> how much a person has in his bank account doesn't matter to me, how much sense he has in his head does.

13))) If you won a million dollars in a lottery, what would you do with it? >>> shopping spree for me and my bear... travel around the world with the whole family... and i will buy all the chocolate covered macadamia nuts i want!